Aten't ded yet

Aug. 23rd, 2025 10:48 pm
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Things what have been happening:

A. My mom is an epic stress demon -- this deserves its own post but teal dear (or I guess TL;DW since it's not written up yet) early stages of dementia plus physical complications plus denial plus verbal aggression ... on top of the normal "treating me like I'm a teenager" and "calling multiple times a day" -- and I'm kind of boiling alive because stress and uncertainty

B. Speaking of boiling, today was the third day over 100F. Even with air conditioning and fans and cooling towels, it's way too hot

C. I have no sense of time any more. Everything is somehow too fast and too slow.

D. My brain is perpetually convinced I'm forgetting shit. Occasionally I actually am. But I'm basically living in perpetual anxiety.

E. Also I'm training new aides, which always sucks even when they're good

F. Phoebe is still cute af. So is Loki. The two of them are the only things keeping me halfway sane. If I can remember tomorrow I'll upload pictures.
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Koalas have fingerprints; hairy-nose wombats do not.

Skin on fingers and toes wrinkle in water not because cells get saturated but as an autonomic nervous system function, which we have apparently known since at least 1935. An initial 2013 study found that people with wrinkled fingertips could pick up and move more wet marbles in a set time frame than people with dry skin; a 2014 study failed to replicate this, but there's more at the BBC including a 2020 replication. (The 2013 reference at least is buried in the BBC article.)

Holding a hot drink inclines us to view people as "emotionally warmer"; a heavier clipboard inclines us to believe the person whose CV it's displaying takes their work more seriously. Many other related fun facts over here.

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Mulligan

Aug. 23rd, 2025 09:01 pm
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I slept ridiculously badly last night.

In one way this wasn't as bad as it might normally have been because today there was no lift club to get up for.

But in another way it was extra miserable because it meant that even when I did wake up I felt so awful that I wondered if I could join D's group of people going to the rugby (group stages of the Women's Rugby World Cup happening in Salford) this afternoon. After an hour lying down -- I didn't sleep but I tried to rest -- I felt enough better to go. I enjoyed the first half (except the score) but really flagged at halftime and was barely aware of the second half (beyond the howls of misery from the loud Scottish fans behind me, who screamed every minute or two about how awful the referring was even though they were winning the whole time).

When we got home I was so tired I tried again to sleep, couldn't do it. I'm now sick of my books and phone games and everything I use to pass the time when my insomnia is bad.

It feels like a real waste of a day, which makes the bank holiday weekend into just a regular weekend.

The weather has been cooler and the sun isn't shining; the light feels weird, it feels like the day never gets going properly. Day after day all week.

I hope very much that sleep is kinder to me tonight. But I don't feel tired now: I didn't do anything; I'm uncomfortably aware that I didn't manage to exercise more than the minimum this week when I'm trying to do more. And I'm not sure about the direction that circuits is taking under its new trainer; it's not working up a sweat in me in the same way.

So between that, a day on trains to and from London on Tuesday, not managing to go to the gym Thursday night when I really wanted to...it's been a whole week of blah (except Wednesday night it was fun to go see To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything! Julie Newmar which we'd never seen before and then have a lush meal afterwards, the first time in ages I actually felt like I ate too much but it was pleasant).

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Today

Aug. 23rd, 2025 05:41 pm
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I had started to write a long post about recent visit with my mother (TLDR we fought) but I have just been out for a walk with friend Janet and feel happy & cheerful & unwilling to dwell on family stress. Sometimes writing it all out just means I wallow in it all.

So. Good things.

Wonderful walk with Janet. It's a warm day, just being outside & walking with someone else was good. Lots of people out, trailing dogs & toddlers behind them.

Janet has given me a big bag of apples from her garden, and we found some wild plums, and picked a big bag of these tiny little yellow sweet plums. It has been such a good year for fruit.

I'm cooking for myself tonight. Chard & tomatoes with chickpeas. I have some jarred chickpeas which are melt-in-your-mouth delicious, and a harvester loaf from a local family bakery which has been going about 100 years, and does such excellent (yeasted) bread. (I am amused to notice that the bakery website hasn't been updated since about 2018 and still says "coming soon" all over the place.)
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[food] misc veg salad

Aug. 22nd, 2025 10:59 pm
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The nature of veg box is that Vegetables for which I have no Plan... accumulate. Today's dinner took a bunch of said accumulated veg and made them salad-shaped, and it worked out well enough that I want a record as a reminder for future self that one can just Do This.

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Back home

Aug. 22nd, 2025 06:24 pm
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I am back from Edinburgh. Himself is now away to Bristol for the weekend. I am going to have a very quiet weekend with no family, just catching up and spending some quality time with white cat. Outside time is planned.

Still tired. Still sleeping badly. Waking up about 2 or 3 o'clock in the morning and just not going back to sleep. Sleeplessness is often a sign of stress, but I'm just not sure what I'm stressed about. Recently I've been reading about the importance of sleep and how long-term sleep problems may be related to dementia, either a cause or an early indicator. (Correlation does not mean causation). So now when I wake up early I think about that. Joys.

I have been spending far too much time lurking on
BestofRedditorUpdates. It's my equivalent of reality TV, or the worst most dramatic soap opera where everyone is in an appalling relationship with someone who either cheats on them, or abuses them or steals their pets. Or (bonus points) all three. Somehow just reading about the appalling situations other people get themselves into is very consoling. I come up from a binge-read and himself makes me a mug of tea, and I get all teary-eyed about what a nice wonderful partner I have. Not cheating. Not abusive. Caring. Loving. Even respects my cat. I think Himself & Cat have a pact of Mutually Assured (non-)Destruction. 'I will provide catfood and the occasional head-rub' on one side and 'I will not destroy you' on the other.

The ROI of exercise

Aug. 22nd, 2025 07:45 am
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I workout 4 days a week and I love it. It's the foundation of my morning routine, following spending 45 minutes drinking coffee on the couch and watching the sun come up with Emma.

I've been doing this for a few years now and while I struggled (as everyone does) in the beginning, I can't imagine not exercising in the morning now. On the rare occasion that I do skip a workout, I feel it missing throughout the day as a lack of vitality and less mental clarity.

Let's perform a thought experiment to work out the return on investment of exercise. For this let's first assume that exercise does nothing else but expand your lifespan (not extend; since it's not just adding frail years to the end but instead injects extra years in each stage of life). We can ignore the effects it has on strength, focus, feelings of accomplishment, and mental health for now.

It's well understood that a good exercise routine is a mixture of strength, mobility, and cardio; and is performed at a decent intensity for 2-4 days a week for at least 45 minutes. This could be a combination of weight lifting, yoga, running, tennis, hiking, or whatever floats your boat.

This totals about 3 hours a week, or 156 hours per year. If we extrapolate that over an adult lifetime, that's about 8,500 hours of exercise, or about a year of solid physical activity.

That sounds like a lot! But when put into the context of life expansion, it's actually an incredibly good deal. There are many studies detailing how any physical activity, from an easy walk all the way up to vigorous exercise a few times a week increases expected lifespan by 3 to 10 years. And none of these studies used lifetime exercisers, just people who exercised regularly in the last 10-ish years.

This makes sense, since 80 years ago we were still fighting the second world war, and jogging only entered the mainstream in the 70s. Weightlifting was an even later bloomer, and only becoming cool in the 90s!

I speculate that a lifetime exerciser with a modern approach to physical activity would have an even longer health and lifespan than any of these studies suggest. But for this writeup I want to stick with conservative estimates and not speculate too much.

We know from one study that people who played tennis a few times per week lived roughly 10 years longer than average. So we'll use that value going forward.

That means that over a lifetime, one full year of exercise leads to 10 full years of extra life. That's a 1:10 return on investment! So even without any of the additional benefits (which I'll get into later), this is still one of the best investments you can make.

Yes, this is an oversimplification. Correlation between exercise and longevity doesn’t imply causation. Confounding factors like diet, socioeconomic status, and healthcare access influence lifespan. Attributing 10 years solely to exercise ignores these; but it does play a significant factor, as many well-controlled studies will attest to.

This is also based on the premise that all of the time spent exercising is "wasted", which is hardly the case. People love running, playing padel with friends, lifting heavy things, and hiking. I love being in the gym, working towards mini-goals, making progress, and interacting with the community around me. This is not time wasted. I'll posit for many people it's the best part of their day. Not only that but it leaves you feeling accomplished, wholesome, and less depressed and anxious.

To end off I'll rattle off a few other things exercise is good for:

  • Better sleep
  • Less frailty in old age
  • More strength
  • Able to take part in more fun activities (like long hikes)
  • Being more attractive (subjectively, of course)
  • Improved self perception
  • Better cognitive function and memory
  • Access to communities
  • Less pain
  • More mobility
  • A stronger immune system

And this is injected into every single part of your life and available in every decade. Not just at the end.

And this is inherently doable. This is the time equivalent of one episode of any Netflix show, 4 times a week. I watched 3 episodes of Pantheon on Monday alone!

So go do the thing. Incrementally at first. Start off slow and build up a practice that feels right. You won't regret it.

BL trip a success

Aug. 21st, 2025 11:42 pm
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In brief: book is the least I've been annoyed by any such book I have yet read, which is fairly impressive going, especially since the copy in the BL's collection is the first edition originally published in 2003 rather than the second edition updated in 2013; more notes possibly to follow (subject to reaching a decision about whether I want to hold out for getting my hands on a copy of the second edition before talking about it in public).

Entertainment: shortly after I finally settled myself down in my nice corner desk against a window with my back to the wall and a whole enclosed-in-glass booth between me and Any Other Readers... my watch buzzed to let me know that I'd just finished a Period Of High Stress. The high stress was, obviously, sitting quietly wedged into a corner on public transport while reading a relaxing book. I did know public transport was exhausting! I have been saying! I'm still kind of impressed at the watch Earnestly Informing Me, In Case I Didn't? Know? and mildly regretting that I'm planning to do the same-ish again tomorrow, and also also I am reassessing A Lot of my wheelchair use in light of this...

Related entertainment: how much my hypervigilance kicked up when I returned from lunch to discover that neatly leaving my notebook and reading-book in a stack on my desk had not had sufficient inhibitory effect, and a Noisy Person had decided to sit diagonally across from me, in my Space, being Noisy. The amount I relaxed when they (temporarily) fucked off is another one for the "yep I can see how not leaving the house for over a year and then staying Hyper Local has added up to me looking much more functional" files...

You know you need a vacation when...

Aug. 21st, 2025 06:44 pm
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We're going to be on vacation from the 16th to the 25 of September.

The other day I blocked this time out in my calendar. The most accessible way to do this involves inputting the start and end dates.

Today I was asked about a meeting for a random Tuesday in October and when I went to see whether or not I was free, I saw that whole day I was showing as "on leave." And the Monday before it. I'm not aware of any reason I'd have time off then!

Zooming out and every day was showing as on leave. Every day that month.

I investigated and, instead of making the vacation last until the 26th of September, I'd somehow gotten it to be the 26th of December.

My burned-out brain just wants an extra three months off, heh.

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Trying to reframe things

Aug. 21st, 2025 05:02 am
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5am and I'm awake from bad dreams. My brain is being a jerk...

Or, it's tired, I've been pushing it too hard for too long. It's trying to take care of me. It's trying to identify potential threats and think about what to do about them.

It's not its fault that the "what if there's a tiger after me" adrenaline and cortisol-based hardware is the only response available to the "complicated family and memories and bullshit email job" emotions that the software is currently running.

I got back to sleep, yay, but I very convincingly dreamed witnessing an accident and having to accompany family members (D and his sister and then somehow V as well) to A&E. I had every detail: bad phone signal when calling 999, not being able to get an ambulance, waiting all day, seeing excellent and nice clinical staff who are very busy)... I stayed with D and knew to look away when they did something that I know in real life would freak me out.

We were just getting to leave, both of them patched up, when my alarm went off.

If I didn't have such a busy day, and a deadline that depended on me doing something not just today but first thing this morning, I might well have called in sick. I never do that, but I honestly felt like I'd just spent a long eight hours looking after severely injured loved ones. It felt unfair to have to go to work too right after that.

But I did.

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[migraine] peripheral vision nonsense

Aug. 20th, 2025 10:54 pm
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The thing about buying new glasses, right, is that I've been feeling avoidant about it in part because I think I was slightly migrainey the day I had the most recent test done and I was already pretty sure that my vision goes... wrong... when migrainey -- most noticeable when moving, but always... there.

Slightly more specifically: it's neither scintillating scotoma nor loss-of-whole-field-of-vision nor any of the other very classic visual auras; instead it's a sense that I'm not managing to track movement properly along the lower edge and especially the lower corners of my field of vision.

... which matches up really well, actually, with the peripheral vision deficiencies that, er, showed up during my last eye test.

I've been noticing the Weirdness on-and-off for quite some time now, and was dithering back and forth about whether it was just confirmation bias in that I was only noticing it when otherwise migrainey -- but then on Monday, while on my way to my GP surgery to pick up some paperwork, it resulted in the railings I was going past (and that I go past regularly!) causing an extremely pronounced and unmistakeable strobing effect. I am very confident that that is not something I would somehow manage to confirmation bias myself out of noticing most of the time, so, hurrah, Definitely A Migraine Symptom (for lo, on Monday I was migrainey) it is.

The thing that is mildly baffling me is that I can't actually find (admittedly on a fairly cursory search) any description of specifically peripheral vision fuckery as a migraine thing! Lots of mentions of tunnel vision, lots of mentions of classic aura, and one case study in which "peripheral vision" is used metaphorically. So, you know, let the record show, &c.

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victory of the day is GLASSES

Aug. 19th, 2025 10:52 pm
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Ordered, at least, to pick up next week.

Indulgence is a writing slope off eBay with a lucky dip of writing utensils, one of which I am very cheerful about...

Vignette

Aug. 19th, 2025 10:22 am
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I'm sitting at a table on the train, and a family with little kids has joined me. I'm delighted to see that Thumb War ("one two three four I declare a...") is a game basically unchanged from when I learned it 35 years ago on another continent.

When the girl asked her mum about the wireless charging spot on the table, I showed her how it worked by sliding my work phone on to it (she grinned when the screen lit up).

Her little brother then held his toy car over the same spot and we all (him too) laughed at his joke about charging his car.

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